Dear Heart,
I’m sorry that I’ve led you blindly in this crazy, cold world. I’m sorry for all the hurt I have caused you to feel. I’m sorry for allowing unworthy people to have the control to tear you and break you down to, what feels like, the point of no return. I’m sorry for not saying “enough is enough” sooner. For giving too many people, too many chances. For not having the strength to cut ties. I’m sorry that my mind and body held on and didn’t have the strength to walk away. And that sometimes my ideas and imagination take over and give you false hope of a “happily ever after”. I’m sorry for all the pain that I’ve caused you because my mind wasn’t ready to let go. I’m sorry for the damage that could have been prevented. And for the damage that I had no control over. I’m sorry that I’m not more kind, soft or loving to you.
But I also want to thank you. Thank you for always repairing yourself. For allowing me to continue to love people, places, and things no matter the damage that has been done. Thank you for showing me that no matter how ugly the world can be, there is still a lot of beauty to be seen and found. Thank you for allowing me to love the people who are worthy of my love. And thank you for allowing me to love the people who needed to feel my love, even if it was temporary. Thank you for waiting around until I’m able to cut ties to unworthy people. Thank you for beating to your own drum. For making me the person that I am. For not allowing me to grow cold in this dark, cold world. Thank you for allowing me to find love in the smallest things like the warmth of the sunrise, the smell of a cup of coffee and the sounds of my family and friends voices.
Thank you for never failing me. For always staying strong even when I want to break.
Thank you for keeping love alive.
Xoxo, Nicole
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